August 17, 2024 – Philadelphia











True to the game, game, motherfuck the fame, fame
When I hit the graveyard, I will be the one the game, game – BONES
The more you make mistakes, the more you embrace imperfection, the better you will become.
Keep reiterating every single day.
There’s something about stepping onto the sidewalk, entering the urban arena, that fills me with a sense of purpose and excitement. The city streets are my playground, a place where I can fully embrace the lust for life and the battle within me.
The moment I hit the concrete, I feel a rush of energy—a pure bliss that comes from watching the flow of people, the movement of traffic, the wiggling of leaves in the breeze. The city excites me like nothing else. It’s a place where humans, designed as social creatures, truly thrive. Sure, nature brings peace and tranquility, but there’s something about urban life that makes us come alive, reaching the apex of civilization.
I love the interaction, the random conversations with security guards, the casual greetings to strangers. The streets fill me with an exuberant energy that I can’t get anywhere else. The concrete is more than just a surface to walk on; it’s the foundation of our urban existence, a stage for the dance of life.
The city is where I belong, where I feel most alive. The contrast between the chaotic energy of urban life and the peaceful retreat of nature is what makes life so rich.
Today, I’m reflecting on the idea that a life filled with vitality is the only life worth living. After fasting all day and following a strict carnivore diet for the past two years, I’ve experienced a profound clarity and vigor. This lifestyle, rooted in primal practices I encountered during my travels from Jerusalem to Jericho and in Zambia, emphasizes the importance of sacrifice, fasting, and communal feasting on meat.
While traveling the road from Jerusalem to Jericho, the lowest and oldest inhabited city in the world, I witnessed the celebration of Eid al-Adha. This biblical event, rooted in the Old Testament, revolves around the notion of sacrifice. During my time there, hundreds of sheep were slaughtered, filling the air with the stench of blood and the cries of sheep. The community fasted all day, and when the sun set, they gathered to feast on the meat. This communal sacrifice and fasting intrigued me deeply, teaching me the primal way of living that I’ve now adopted.
Another profound experience came during my time as a Peace Corps volunteer in Zambia, Africa. When I arrived in my village to work with the Department of Fisheries on aquaculture projects, I was initiated as a surrogate member of the Bemba tribe. A goat was hung from a tree, and I was handed a knife to slaughter it. This ritual marked my initiation, and the meat from that goat sustained us for the next week. This experience reinforced the importance of communal feasting and the deep connection between sacrifice and vitality.
In contrast to these primal practices, modern urban life has domesticated us, much like zoo animals. We spend most of our time indoors, snacking on processed foods from vending machines and fast-food outlets. This lifestyle inevitably leads to a decline in our physiology, health, and vitality. We’ve become too comfortable, seeking pleasure without making meaningful sacrifices. However, through fasting, I’ve found a way to remain laser-focused, with sharp visual acuity and enhanced intuition, unclouded by the fog of constant digestion.
Our bodies, much like batteries, are charged by the sun and fueled by the nutrients in meat. This connection between our diet, sunlight, and vitality leads to a more energized life, free from the decline brought on by modern eating habits. When we consume more cholesterol through red meat and expose ourselves to sunlight, our bodies synthesize vitamin D, boosting testosterone and overall vitality.
By simplifying our lives, getting enough rest, and aligning with our natural state, we can go through life with purpose, clarity, and vigor. Discipline and the elimination of unnecessary choices are key to finding this freedom. Rather than being overwhelmed by the abundance of options, we should focus on what truly matters—our health, vitality, and connection to the natural world.

Night by Edward Stauch, located in the Horticulture Center in Philadelphia. Here’s some information about it:
The Horticulture Center in Philadelphia is a place where art and nature come together, making it a fitting home for a sculpture that contemplates the serene and introspective qualities of night.

The quote you’re referring to is from Friedrich Nietzsche’s Thus Spoke Zarathustra:
“One must still have chaos in oneself to give birth to a dancing star.”
This quote reflects Nietzsche’s philosophy on creativity, the self, and the transformative power of inner chaos. The “chaos” represents the inner turmoil, conflicts, and raw energy that reside within a person. It symbolizes the passionate and often tumultuous emotions or thoughts that can lead to significant creative or personal breakthroughs.
The “dancing star” is a metaphor for something beautiful, vibrant, and original that emerges from this inner chaos. Nietzsche suggests that it is precisely this inner disorder or conflict that fuels the creation of something extraordinary. The idea is that without experiencing and embracing the chaos within, one cannot achieve the kind of transformation that leads to the birth of a “dancing star”—a symbol of artistic or spiritual creation, brilliance, and individuality.
In essence, Nietzsche is highlighting the importance of embracing the complexities and struggles within oneself as a necessary process for achieving greatness, creativity, and self-realization. It encourages the idea that out of disorder and struggle, something profound and beautiful can emerge.

I don’t need to go anywhere new, for I can dive inside my mind.
There are endless streets to wander in this city, so don’t get left behind.
Find yourself in a curious state, a childlike state of mind.
Don’t be afraid to enter chaos, and step out of line.
The only life worth living is a life full of vitality.
At the end of my day, after eating, the sun begins to set, and I can feel my body slowly shut down. For our bodies are like batteries, full of electric currents, firing throughout our body, giving energy to our brain, our heart, our muscles, and all of our vital organs. By leading a day full of power, standing upright, walking with a strong gait, embracing the elements, the sunlight, and chaos, I give the day all I’ve got. When it comes to vitality, we must consider sleep more critically and how we can maximize our energy by recharging our battery.
I wake up before the sun starts to show some light beyond the horizon. I enjoy slamming down espresso I pre-prepared the night before in the fridge so that I can drink it with speed, entering my Dionysian state of frenzy. I do some simple stretching, strap on my 40-pound plate carrier, throw on a pair of barefoot shoes, with a big hole in the bottom exposing one of my toes, and hit the nature trail along the Schuylkill River. I wake up with Spartan rigor and embrace the discipline of the early hours. These daily rituals enhance my lust for life itself, as I wake up, eager to practice my photography, throwing my camera in my front right pocket, and hitting the streets as early as possible. I’m just so eager and excited for the day, cheerful for the morning time, excited for the sun to rise, and find joy in the journey ahead each day.
Don’t be bound to anything.
In terms of photography, forget about the pictures, the results, and the outcome. Simply make photographs for the sake of making photographs, finding joy and meaning in the process. Use photography as a way for you to affirm life, giving meaning to the mundane.
In the context of everyday life, recognize the chaos within you and the world around you. While there is order and structure to the streets, because of the infrastructure, the grid system, the traffic signals, stop signs, and streetlights, the humans who dance upon the streets are full of chaos and unpredictability.
“One must still have chaos in oneself to be able to give birth to a dancing star.” — Friedrich Nietzsche
As a street photographer, we enter the unknown, embracing spontaneity, and put order to chaos, placing four corners around life, and saying yes, following our instinct, our gut. Perhaps it is our instinct that we ultimately must become more in tune with, as this is where our most vital and alive selves can be born, where our chaos is born, giving birth to that bright light within us.
Every morning, I march to the highest elevated place near me, behind the Philadelphia Museum of Art, standing on top of the cliff. I seek a high vantage point, somewhere to place my beacon down, like a lighthouse, shining in the darkness. I need to look out beyond the horizon, for it is my instinct to look out and gaze into the unknown. My gut tells me to stand at the precipice each day, to move onward into the unknown. When I look out at the horizon, I remind myself that I could live until I’m 120 years old and still not experience everything in this life. When I have a Panopticon view of my surroundings, have a view of 360° around me, I feel on top of the world, transcending beauty and experiencing the sublime.
As I gaze out towards the horizon, eager to see the sun pierce above, I’m reminded of light, and its impact on my life, as my medium of choice within the realm of photography. We must not forget that photography is merely drawing with light.
The word photography comes from the Greek words “phōs” (φῶς), meaning “light,” and “graphê” (γραφή), meaning “drawing” or “writing.”
By embracing black and white, light and shadow, we return to the essence of the medium, creating an instant sketch of light, an instant sketch of life.
The more I contemplate light, the more I realize why I hate the night. In the nighttime, there are no shadows cast. In the nighttime, there is no sunlight. In the nighttime, there is nothing but artificial light. Artificial light is not something that intrigues me; it’s boring, and I’d rather sleep, waking up the next day, eager to catch the rays of the sun instead.
When I think of light and shadow, I’m reminded of the allegory of the cave by Plato, and notions of self-perception. Like the prisoners shackled to the cave, viewing the shadows cast from the fire in the cave upon the wall, those shadows tell a story about the world around them, and are the only perception they have of reality. When I walk around the city, I find playful ways to photograph my shadow, I sometimes even wave at it, and question the nature of things, and what makes something true or false. When I consider photography, light, and shadow, perhaps there is no ultimate truth, when it comes to making a photograph. A photograph lies, a photograph is merely a reflection of our perception of reality, and not the true reality. But what is true reality? Is true reality another world, a heaven, a metaphysical area that we haven’t yet discovered? Maybe reality is within our bodies, our biology, our physiology, and the physical world itself. When I walk with my feet firmly on the ground, I’m reminded that I’m bound by gravity. We are people of this earth, and physics is real. Photography allows the individual to experience the surreal, and to create a new world, a new reality.
God is dead and we’ve replaced him with bureaucracy.
The order and structure that bureaucracy provides a city is frankly amusing. We are born into this world, and immediately assigned a Social Security number. We go through the public school education system, trained to sit down, listen to a bell ring, obey, and take orders. Eventually, we go to the DMV, get a driver’s license, after waiting for our number to be called, to then have another number assigned to our license. When I enter the workforce, I’m given a payroll number, a bank account number, a debit card number, a phone number, and if I want to join a union, I’m just a number on a list. We were born slaves to a system that we involuntarily agreed upon. We’re dependent on the systems to provide us with our basic needs, such as food and shelter. The main problem with the system is that I believe we are currently facing a hamster wheel, where we are indebted to the systems, just getting by, providing us with the right amount of money in a bank account to provide us with food and shelter, just enough to keep us treading above water. Because of this, the individual within the system has no time, quite literally time itself, to even think for themselves, do things for themselves, ask questions about the universe, the world, life, and make deeper relationships, founded upon common beliefs of spirituality that give life a deeper meaning. Our new spirituality has become this consumer culture that we’ve all adopted, replacing these deeper questions with the pursuit of power, pleasure, and material goods. We chase social status, instead of making an effort to go deeper within our personal and immediate communities. We have become atomized, scattered, spread out from each other, and no longer are one tribe. Think of the modern workplace, how we are confined to an office building, a cubicle, boxing ourselves in upon boxes and boxes, caged like zoo animals. We are living in a post-noble world, a slave world, and have been trained since a young age to be the perfect candidate for this slave factory.
Let’s rise above these modern spaces, these artificial environments that atomize us, that separate us, and become our own God.
Let’s return to the basics, to the foundation of what makes us human. We have two legs, stand upright, with a tall spine, and a head that sits on top, providing us with the ability to look at our surroundings, with our clear vision, our eyes, and our intuition that alerts us of danger, or any potential predators that come our way.
Our body is the vehicle, and we are driven through curiosity and courage.
In this modern world, our cars are the vehicle, and we spend most days sitting on our butts, being driven around by a big metal chariot like a toddler in a baby stroller, pacified.
By recognizing the connection between your mind and your body, and the body as the ultimate vehicle, we can return to nature. We must align with the highest version of ourselves, by practicing daily physical exertion, by making an effort to use our bodies. With the pursuit of pleasure, comfort, and power, comes the decline of the physical form, the human body. By sitting down each day, taking orders, and staying in that cubicle in the workplace, we are denying our true and authentic selves from coming out of us. Let’s return to nature, through physical exercise, and make an effort, each and every day, to stand upright, and use our vehicles.
When I’m full of power and energy, you cannot get me to sit still. You cannot tell me to do this or do that, if it requires me toiling at a computer like a monkey. My theory about the city is that nothing is really happening, that we are merely here as players, actors, pretending, making this game so boring, so tedious, so degrading and dehumanizing, to the point where we are becoming actual robots in the flesh. But let us return to flesh, as the ultimate technology, aligning with nature, and what it means to truly be human, to play a vital role within this cosmic drama.
When the individual returns to nature, we recognize our role within the animal kingdom. For the human being is the apex predator, not the lion, not the bear, for those animals have no conscience, no wit, no ingenuity. But the human being, with our hands, and our opposable thumbs, have been given the ability to craft tools, to make arrows, to craft guns and bullets, to hunt prey, to kill animals, and to feast on the flesh.
I will never forget when I arrived at my village in Zambia, Africa, as a Peace Corps volunteer, presented with a goat, hanging from a tree, and a knife to slaughter it. For the next week, we feasted together, my initiation as a surrogate member of the Bemba tribe. During my time spent in Jericho, during Eid al-Adha, the day of sacrifice, hundreds of sheep were slaughtered throughout the streets, and the community fasted all throughout the day, waiting for the evening, the sun to set, to feast as a community.
These experiences remind me of the importance of fasting, sacrifice, and eating real animal-based protein. My new idea is that the only real food is flesh. We must eat the flesh of animals, fueling our physical bodies with the energy it needs to sustain us throughout the day. When I eat meat, I am no longer dependent on food throughout the day; I no longer have cravings or an insatiable appetite. I am fully satiated, full of vigor, power, and can move onward each day with strength and vigor without the need of snacking like a squirrel or a zoo animal in a cage, waddling to a vending machine within an artificial space to purchase a granola bar or a soda pop.
I may be right, or I may be wrong, but who cares. I am a fool, I am an amateur, and I know nothing. I am merely a vessel, a vehicle, moving through this world, open and eager to learn each day. Through the medium of photography, I embrace the spirit of play, treating the world around me as a playground or canvas.
I don’t take myself so seriously, and find this to be the best place to be, as I can endlessly evolve, through the process of photography, getting closer and closer to life itself. By remaining in this amateur mindset, that of a fool, I experiment endlessly, with the ability to find meaning in the mundane. By photographing with a snapshot approach, letting my instincts carry me, I return to that childlike spirit of play that carries me throughout the day.
I have no destination in mind. There is no goal. There is only process.
There is only walking, thinking, photographing, asking questions, and then doing it again. I never had a goal. I never really cared. I only enjoy making the work, moving onward endlessly. I don’t want to stop. I have no plan.
I don’t need to go anywhere new, for I can dive inside my mind.
There are endless streets to wander in this city, so don’t get left behind.
Find yourself in a curious state, a childlike state of mind.
Don’t be afraid to enter chaos, and step out of line.
Live dangerously. Wander.
DANTE
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Goethe’s Theory of Colors (Zur Farbenlehre), published in 1810, is one of his most intriguing works, showcasing his unique approach to science and his deep engagement with the phenomenon of color. Unlike Isaac Newton’s more mechanistic and mathematical Opticks, Goethe’s work on color is deeply rooted in human perception and the qualitative experience of color.

Johann Wolfgang von Goethe (1749–1832) was a towering figure in German literature, philosophy, and science. He is best known as a poet, playwright, novelist, and statesman, but his influence extends far beyond these fields into areas such as natural science, art theory, and politics. Goethe is often regarded as one of the greatest writers in the German language and one of the most important figures in Western literature.
Goethe was born in Frankfurt am Main, in what is now Germany. He showed an early interest in literature and the arts, and his family encouraged his education in various subjects, including law, which he studied at the universities of Leipzig and Strasbourg. His legal studies, however, were secondary to his literary ambitions.
Goethe’s literary career began in earnest with the publication of “The Sorrows of Young Werther” (Die Leiden des jungen Werthers) in 1774. This novel, which tells the story of a young man’s unrequited love and eventual suicide, became an international sensation and made Goethe famous throughout Europe. It is often associated with the Sturm und Drang (Storm and Stress) movement, which emphasized emotional extremes and individualism.
Goethe’s masterpiece is undoubtedly “Faust,” a tragic play in two parts. Part I, published in 1808, and Part II, published posthumously in 1832, together tell the story of Dr. Faust, a scholar who makes a pact with the devil (Mephistopheles) in his quest for unlimited knowledge and worldly pleasures. The play explores deep philosophical and moral questions, including the nature of human desire, the limits of knowledge, and the struggle between good and evil.
Besides “Faust,” Goethe wrote a vast range of other works, including plays like “Egmont” and “Iphigenia in Tauris,” the novel “Wilhelm Meister’s Apprenticeship,” and numerous lyric poems. His poetry, including collections like “West-Eastern Divan” (West-östlicher Divan), reflects his broad interests, ranging from personal reflection to philosophical and spiritual themes.
Goethe spent much of his life in Weimar, where he held various government positions, including working as a theater director. During this time, he formed a close friendship with Friedrich Schiller, another giant of German literature. Their collaboration and mutual influence were central to the development of Weimar Classicism, a movement that sought to synthesize the ideals of ancient Greek and Roman art with modern sensibilities. Their correspondence and shared projects greatly enriched German literature.
Goethe was also a passionate scientist. His most notable scientific work is “Theory of Colors” (Zur Farbenlehre), in which he proposed a different approach to understanding color than Isaac Newton’s. Goethe’s theory focused on the subjective experience of color and the interplay between light and dark, though it was not widely accepted by the scientific community. He also made contributions to botany, anatomy, and geology, and his work in these areas reflects his holistic and philosophical approach to nature.
In his later years, Goethe continued to write and reflect on a wide range of topics. He completed the second part of “Faust,” which is more allegorical and philosophical than the first. He also wrote his autobiography, “Poetry and Truth” (Dichtung und Wahrheit), which provides insight into his early life and development as an artist.
Goethe’s influence extends beyond literature. His ideas about nature, art, and the human condition have had a lasting impact on philosophy, especially philosophy, psychology, and the arts.
Goethe’s intellectual versatility and his ability to bridge the arts and sciences make him a unique figure in Western intellectual history. His works continue to be read, studied, and admired for their depth, insight, and the way they address the fundamental questions of human existence.

Friedrich Schiller’s concept of the sublime is an important aspect of his aesthetic philosophy. In his essays, particularly “On the Sublime” (Über das Erhabene), Schiller explores the idea that the sublime arises from a human confrontation with the infinite or the overwhelming, leading to a sense of awe and respect.
In summary, Schiller’s concept of the sublime is about the human capacity to confront, comprehend, and ultimately transcend the overwhelming forces of nature or emotion through reason and moral strength. This experience leads to a profound sense of freedom and dignity, making the sublime a key component in Schiller’s understanding of human potential and aesthetic experience.